Everyone should just shut the hell up and leave me alone. Let ME figure things out. I don’t need you telling me what I want to do. Do you really know what I want? No. Because you aren’t me. So stop giving me all this bullshit. “She doesn’t give any effort at all”. No You shut the fuck up. Her way of giving effort is different. Don’t give me any of that. I know what I see, and I’m not blinded. She does give effort, so stop telling me she doesn’t. So what if she doesn’t do the little things I do? Like surprising you now and then? Maybe because she can’t? Did you ever think that? No. I thought not. So shut your mouth. “She treats you like crap”. She’s confused with herself on what to do. She’s not perfect and I accept that. And I’m above just sitting around letting her kick me around. If she treats me like crap, I walk. Simple as that. If I see it, I just simply ignore it and wait for her to calm down. I’m not stupid. I never asked for you to tell me what to do. I asked you to comfort me. If you don’t want to, then just say so. I won’t get butthurt. To begin our conversation by calling me an idiot and being blind? No. I’m not blind. She wants to do things the old fashion way, and I’ve always wanted to do it that way. She makes me laugh and smile, and that’s more than good enough for me. So don’t give me your shit. I don’t even know why you’re mad. I tried to calmly explain to you my situation and you suddenly explode? I haven’t even mentioned this to you ever. This is literally the first time. Yeah, I’d understand if I did it constantly. But this is the FIRST time. Jeez.

In the mood to catch up with old friends ^^

I wish someone could understand how and why I feel the way I feel. I wish things were easier, but I guess nothing comes easy. I just want someone I could really talk too. I feel really alone all the time. I’m such a depressing person. Sigh.